Kurt Bauer 
Crime scene church 
Escaping the torments

I became a victim of abuse in the church when I was a pupil in a Franciscan boarding school. My parents sent me there in order to give me a well-founded education under the protection of the monastic welfare. However, the boarding school turned out to be a nightmare. The Fathers had a double face: friendly on the outside and violent on the inside. Sexually abused several times and violently knocked down, I became alienated from myself. My inner life had shattered. Gaps in my consciousness as well as blind spots in my perception and thinking were the result. For me, this became quite normal; for many years there was a total disconnect between my past and present. Only when my life broke apart and I became suicidal did I realize that I needed help. From then on I wanted to know what had driven me into such hopelessness and alienation from life. Gradually, I regained access …

About the author

My name is Kurt Bauer. I am an author, a certified pedagogue, a social and life consultant. I am a church victim of abuse, which has had a lasting influence on my life. I have not only dealt with sexual abuse concerning my person, but also with the effects in our society.
The book I have written tells about how sexual abuse affects our whole lives and what effects it has, and is intended to inspire discussion.